Wow, so I think the no sugar thing is helping, I had a great week! I thought that I would feel more cravings at least for a week or two but it went far better than I expected. I didn't feel the crazy want to eat all the time feeling. I ate so much better with more fruits and veggies and overall felt so much victory.
I also exercised three time which with my back problems I have been having lately this is really good. I know that I have a long way to go but I just need to take it one day at a time. If I do the weight will come off and I will feel better. Today I am going to celebrate the first of many disciplined weeks.
Monday, January 31, 2011
Thursday, January 27, 2011
The plans I have for you
I was reading and praying about Jeremiah 29:11 this morning.
This may be a well known verse to many but as I was praying and meditating on it I was reminded that being fat was and is not God's plan for me. I think much of my life I told myself, God loves me just the way I am. And though God does love us no matter the size he does and did not love what I was doing doing to my body, his temple. So often being overweight leads to a feeling of hopelessness, feeling like I will never be able to beat this, to actually change. And as the verse says that is not God's plan for me, he wants me to live a hopeful life full of his promises and life-giving truth. An only when I turn from my sin (of gluttony) and replace it with his truth will I find the strength to break free from this.
So as I continue on day 4 of no sugar I know I will have many opportunities to see God work and to choose discipline. As I do that I will build my resolve and see some great victory!
"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord,
plans to prosper you and not to harm you plans to give you
hope and a future.
So as I continue on day 4 of no sugar I know I will have many opportunities to see God work and to choose discipline. As I do that I will build my resolve and see some great victory!
Monday, January 24, 2011
Breaking up is hard to do
So first things first, the number on the scale... 248.2. That warrants a yikes I am afraid, and I truly hope to never see that number again, like ever. For any sisters reading I did get a new scale so that is one reason that it is a bit higher than weigh ins and also because I ate a bunch of sugar.
Why all the sugar you may ask? Well that leads me to my announcement. For the next year, apart from my birthday, anniversary, and Christmas day I will be abstaining from all refined sugar. Anyone who knows me would follow that statement with a collective gasp. You see sugar and I have a very unhealthy relationship. It is like that boyfriend in college, the one you wanted to spend all your time with, you thought about all the time, ditched others for him just to find out that he really didn't like you all that much and was actually seeing someone on the side. But alas you would take him back time and time again even though you knew it was the worst thing for you. Yep that is me and sugar, I keep going back eating it all the time even though it is never enough, I always want more. And it has to stop. So I am breaking up with sugar, we are over.
I am sure you have heard that the addiction to food is the hardest to get over. Why? Because you can not stop cold turkey, you have to eat to sustain life. My biggest struggle is with sweets; cinnamon rolls, chocolate chip cookies, brownies and ice cream. You get the point, it almost always spirals me into a binge that is hard to come back from. I don't go crazy on fast food or pizza, though I like it it does not call to me like a pack of peanut M & Ms. So though I can't stop eating cold turkey I can say no to the thing that sabotages me the most, my ex sugar. Just to clarify (mostly for myself) I am going to still have honey and maple syrup for baking and also something called sucanat which is a natural sweetener along with stevia. All these very limited. I also am going to be staying away from any sugar substitutes and soda. So really this is a double break up with diet soda AND sugar. This could get emotional, and crabby.
I was thinking about this decision yesterday, as I nursed my last diet coke. I know it is going to be hard, really, really hard. And I know I am going to have days that I am going to be so mad I made this choice and want to give up. But that is when I will get to the end of myself and where God's strength will have to carry me. If I am not willing to do the uncomfortable I will miss out on the amazing things God is willing and waiting to do in my life. So here is to day one, 364 to go.
Why all the sugar you may ask? Well that leads me to my announcement. For the next year, apart from my birthday, anniversary, and Christmas day I will be abstaining from all refined sugar. Anyone who knows me would follow that statement with a collective gasp. You see sugar and I have a very unhealthy relationship. It is like that boyfriend in college, the one you wanted to spend all your time with, you thought about all the time, ditched others for him just to find out that he really didn't like you all that much and was actually seeing someone on the side. But alas you would take him back time and time again even though you knew it was the worst thing for you. Yep that is me and sugar, I keep going back eating it all the time even though it is never enough, I always want more. And it has to stop. So I am breaking up with sugar, we are over.
I am sure you have heard that the addiction to food is the hardest to get over. Why? Because you can not stop cold turkey, you have to eat to sustain life. My biggest struggle is with sweets; cinnamon rolls, chocolate chip cookies, brownies and ice cream. You get the point, it almost always spirals me into a binge that is hard to come back from. I don't go crazy on fast food or pizza, though I like it it does not call to me like a pack of peanut M & Ms. So though I can't stop eating cold turkey I can say no to the thing that sabotages me the most, my ex sugar. Just to clarify (mostly for myself) I am going to still have honey and maple syrup for baking and also something called sucanat which is a natural sweetener along with stevia. All these very limited. I also am going to be staying away from any sugar substitutes and soda. So really this is a double break up with diet soda AND sugar. This could get emotional, and crabby.
I was thinking about this decision yesterday, as I nursed my last diet coke. I know it is going to be hard, really, really hard. And I know I am going to have days that I am going to be so mad I made this choice and want to give up. But that is when I will get to the end of myself and where God's strength will have to carry me. If I am not willing to do the uncomfortable I will miss out on the amazing things God is willing and waiting to do in my life. So here is to day one, 364 to go.
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Back-up, we need some background please
I have a obsession love for blogs. They are so human, and for the most part give such a great insight into the lives of others. I started this love love relationship when we were in the process of adopting our oldest two children from Guatemala. I started reading a few adoption blogs and I finally found someone who could relate to the crazy journey we were on. Then life sped up and I changed our adoption blog to a family blog with the new addition of our daughter a year ago. Then I started reading these amazing stories about weight loss journeys and I was encouraged, and inspired. Obviously I was motivated enough to document my story.
Now here comes the disclaimer...I am not going to be one of those blogs that post a 10 lb weight loss every week. Or share every piece of food I put in my mouth, I'm just not. But what I am going to do is be real.
I have struggled with weight my entire life, been on countless diets (this will I am sure warent an entire post in and of itself) and lost and gained hundreds of pounds along the way. Here's the thing, I found out in college that I had PCOS (poly cystic ovary syndrome) and it is a beast. There are many symptoms but one of the biggies is weight gain and you guessed it, difficulty loosing weight. Here's the kicker, though there are some treatments the best treatment is exercise and to maintain a healthy weight. So let me recap, loosing weight is the best thing to deal with this disease BUT it is extremely difficult to loose weight. Does anyone else see the irony and problem with this situation?
So though the going may be slow, there is no where to go but down. If I don't the reality is that I will be an undisciplined woman with an increased risk of diabetes, cancer, and heart disease. Those are all heightened already with obesity and PCOS only heightens these risks. So yes, this is going to be hard but it is a fight worth giving my all.
In another note tomorrow is weigh in for our accountability group. I will post the scary number tomorrow along with an announcement. Onward.
Now here comes the disclaimer...I am not going to be one of those blogs that post a 10 lb weight loss every week. Or share every piece of food I put in my mouth, I'm just not. But what I am going to do is be real.
I have struggled with weight my entire life, been on countless diets (this will I am sure warent an entire post in and of itself) and lost and gained hundreds of pounds along the way. Here's the thing, I found out in college that I had PCOS (poly cystic ovary syndrome) and it is a beast. There are many symptoms but one of the biggies is weight gain and you guessed it, difficulty loosing weight. Here's the kicker, though there are some treatments the best treatment is exercise and to maintain a healthy weight. So let me recap, loosing weight is the best thing to deal with this disease BUT it is extremely difficult to loose weight. Does anyone else see the irony and problem with this situation?
So though the going may be slow, there is no where to go but down. If I don't the reality is that I will be an undisciplined woman with an increased risk of diabetes, cancer, and heart disease. Those are all heightened already with obesity and PCOS only heightens these risks. So yes, this is going to be hard but it is a fight worth giving my all.
In another note tomorrow is weigh in for our accountability group. I will post the scary number tomorrow along with an announcement. Onward.
Saturday, January 22, 2011
The journey begins, or should I say continues...
For the past few months I have been working on well, lots of things. I have six amazing sisters and almost six months ago two of us started meeting, determined to become disciplined in our eating. We had some major ups and downs but we have moved forward and now five of us are meeting all with the goal to not only loose weight but become disciplined women in other areas as well.
While these other areas such as; getting up early, spending time daily with the Lord, drinking more water, and no snacking, have really started becoming good habits the weight is not coming off. This can be a bit discouraging but I am not giving up! I am pulling out all the stops and fighting this battle with all I have. I decided that a blog would be a great way to document this adventure and the changes that will happen along the way. And let's be honest, with five sisters for accountability partners they need a place to check in on me :)
While these other areas such as; getting up early, spending time daily with the Lord, drinking more water, and no snacking, have really started becoming good habits the weight is not coming off. This can be a bit discouraging but I am not giving up! I am pulling out all the stops and fighting this battle with all I have. I decided that a blog would be a great way to document this adventure and the changes that will happen along the way. And let's be honest, with five sisters for accountability partners they need a place to check in on me :)
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