Breaking up is hard to do

So first things first, the number on the scale... 248.2.  That warrants a yikes I am afraid, and I truly hope to never see that number again, like ever.  For any sisters reading I did get a new scale so that is one reason that it is a bit higher than weigh ins and also because I ate a bunch of sugar.


Why all the sugar you may ask?  Well that leads me to my announcement.  For the next year, apart from my birthday, anniversary, and Christmas day I will be abstaining from all refined sugar.  Anyone who knows me would follow that statement with a collective gasp.  You see sugar and I have a very unhealthy relationship.  It is like that boyfriend in college, the one you wanted to spend all your time with, you thought about all the time, ditched others for him just to find out that he really didn't like you all that much and was actually seeing someone on the side.  But alas you would take him back time and time again even though you knew it was the worst thing for you.  Yep that is me and sugar, I keep going back eating it all the time even though it is never enough, I always want more.  And it has to stop.  So I am breaking up with sugar, we are over.


I am sure you have heard that the addiction to food is the hardest to get over.  Why?  Because you can not stop cold turkey, you have to eat to sustain life.  My biggest struggle is with sweets; cinnamon rolls, chocolate chip cookies, brownies and ice cream.  You get the point, it almost always spirals me into a binge that is hard to come back from.  I don't go crazy on fast food or pizza, though I like it it does not call to me like a pack of peanut M & Ms.  So though I can't stop eating cold turkey I can say no to the thing that sabotages me the most, my ex sugar.  Just to clarify (mostly for myself) I am going to still have honey and maple syrup for baking and also something called sucanat which is a natural sweetener along with stevia.  All these very limited.  I also am going to be staying away from any sugar substitutes and soda.  So really this is a double break up with diet soda AND sugar.  This could get emotional, and crabby.


I was thinking about this decision yesterday, as I nursed my last diet coke.  I know it is going to be hard, really, really hard.  And I know I am going to have days that I am going to be so mad I made this choice and want to give up.  But that is when I will get to the end of myself and where God's strength will have to carry me.  If I am not willing to do the uncomfortable I will miss out on the amazing things God is willing and waiting to do in my life.  So here is to day one, 364 to go.